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Sad and Crushed.

My mamma nerves are raw tonight.

A little over 3 weeks ago I went to the farmers market to pick up some eggs. When using set eggs I saw that they were fertile eggs. So on a whim I put 2 of them in my small little incubator. I thought since they had been refrigerated that there would be nothing of the eggs and from my reading on the web it said that they would most likely not hatch but I was wanting to give it a try.

Ten days later I candle the eggs and see that one had started developing. I thought this very cool and had this great blog post brewing in my head about how you can hatch out eggs from the farmers market at only pennies on the chick where they would be good layers since they come from stock used for laying.

Anyhow, fast forward to today, day 23 of the chick being in the egg and the normal cycle 21 days to hatch day and I thought the worst, that the baby chicken had died. Crack open the top where the air sack was and to my surprise I see movement. I instantly feel horrible. Baby was still in there and alive and clearly just behind because, duh… I put COLD eggs into the incubator and it took a few days for the temp to get just right.

I hurry up and put the egg back in the incubator and go online to look for guidance. With the information I had given of baby being on day 23 someone told me to pip the egg (making a hole in the membrane) so that the baby could breath. I try and it starts bleeding! I’m horrified! I feel so guilty and dumb. Poor baby I should have just left it alone to do its natural thing like I believe in for all healthy births! I watch until I notice that baby is not moving anymore. My heart sinks. I leave the egg in the incubator until the boys go to bed to investigate. I poke at it and no movement. I watch for anything but the color now is off too. Finally, I come to terms that the baby is no longer alive in the egg and I crack it open to find a beautiful baby that died because I could not wait longer.

Perfectly formed. All the toes and nails and everything there. Just me being a bad, ignorant mother hen. Had I given the baby a couple of more days to finish absorbing the yoke and pip itself then I would have been welcoming a new member to my flock of chickens instead of feeling loss and guilt tonight.

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Saturday Personal Update

This morning we went to the farmer´s market on Cherry St. and this was our bounty. We got there a little late so there wasn´t much of a selection left. But we will be able to finish this off by the end of the week and maybe get there earlier next Saturday. I´ll take my camera with me and take some photo´s of the yarn stand there which has yarn made by local fiber! Will have to look into that more next time.

This week has been full of water play dates. We spent Memorial day at my brother´s house where they set up their pool and we got one of my nephews a double slip and slide for a late birthday present and my boys really enjoyed that. We had a splash pad play group meet at Riverside Park on Wednesday and the boys had a blast splashing in the water there. This is the fun part of summer and being a stay at home mom.

The not so fun part of my week has been my raging hormones, horrific allergies, and my 4 year old testing every boundary followed by throwing horrific tantrums when he doesn´t get his way. Don´t know how many times I have asked God to grant me the Strength to be a level headed mom this week.

How was your week? Anything amazing happen?